At the risk of jinxing anything, or sounding a bit foolish or strange, a little Life Situation update may be in order. A good percentage of our last couple of weeks here at Xihua University has been devoted not to finding closure with friends (although we've been doing plenty of that), or doing favorite things for the Last Time (ditto on that), or even (heaven forbid!) packing. Instead, we've been following up on a job opportunity, here in Chengdu! I don't think I'll say much here about it, except that it is A) exciting and promising, B) fits our values in so so many ways, and C) came alone so late in the game that it's, ummm..., still undecided. As in we may get a job and a visa to be here in the fall, and .. we may not.
So, not for the first time, we find ourselves still living in a strange land of limbo, between two places, with nothing concrete at either end. If a decision gets made to hire us, we're here in China - if not, we're back in the States. So, much like Schrödinger's cat, (if you were paying attention in your physics class) we find ourselves occupying two separate realities simultaneously. Except that no cats will be killed in this thought experiment, only made homeless. (More on that in an upcoming post...)
The funny thing about it? It should make me feel utterly beside myself crazy, right?! But somehow, it doesn't. Well most of the time, anyway. I could view it as being out of control of my life, but it doesn't feel like that. After all, I'm not a victim of anything here, unless I'm the victim of a great opportunity that I just barely caught. It feels more like, hmmm, waiting? Floating? Surfing. Skiing. Making decisions, then letting gravity do the rest of the work. Channeling my inner Pat Morita from Karate Kid. (Note to self: maybe I should actually get around to watching that movie soon)
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